I will aloe your back now! And give you a Meredith hug.
and youuuuuu! ♥thank you for existing♥
asmallcoat replied to your post “I can’t describe how pointless it felt to lie in bed just now. As soon…”
oh, lady :(c’mere and let me rub your back.
thank you for reading that and for being so sweet♥
I can’t describe how pointless it felt to lie in bed just now. As soon as I was done watching cartoons my thoughts flooded every empty space I have, drowning me. I am sitting up now, after dry heaving for what felt like an hour. My head hurts and only eating potatoes in the last 48hrs was a bad idea but I can’t stomach anything else.
This weekend was has left me so mentally drained and mentally limp that I can’t focus on anything important.
I tried to house hunt and that was painfully pointless. The subject of university makes me physically flinch and curl up inwards. I can’t tell what’s positive or negative in my life right now when it comes to relationships and how I deal with them. I hate sitting on the verge of the meltdown, with strength enough to keep me from falling but staring into the horrible abyss.
I’ve been taking care of others for as long as I can remember and it’s honestly so taxing. I just want to be taken care of for once.
I didn’t realize that moving back to my mom’s would require me to become everyone’s support. I almost want to quit my job so I can actually have time to help everyone and sort out the house situation and see something get done. But without an income I would just be another fucking burden.
Moving out again won’t solve my problems cos my family would be right back where they started…but I’m honestly just so exhausted. I’m so tired of being the one that sorts shit out when I can barely do it for myself. “OH BUT YOURE THE OLDEST” such bullshit, when my two older siblings live guilt-free lives far from this shit hole and somehow I’m responsible for how my two youngest siblings turn out? I love my mother, forever, no one better talk shit about my mother to me; but I am exhausted from picking up after her.
I just want to work and go to school and not think about falling asleep for good. Please don’t tell me to cheer up, cos I’m not sad. I’ve bitten off way more than I can chew and I’m literally sick to my stomach and find it hard to breath. I am in no shape to make important decisions right now about streamlining where I place my time and effort. I can’t possibly choose between everyone and everything right now.
I have to make a point of stopping this post, cos it doesn’t feel like I’m coming to an end. However, I do feel %5 better.
The only thing that is non-patriotic and/or bad for America - is constant invasion and intrusion into everyone’s business, while there are tons of unsolved problems in it’s own backyard, not mentioning that “patriotic” in America lately became the synonym to oppressive. Care to wake up?
Like for real… and I follow a bunch of cool ass blogs, but I cant take seeing this complaint all day, everyday.
I guess I should keep trying to ignore it like I ignore anime posts that I don’t understand lol but i’m opinionated and I get so annoyed watching people be rude over something that they think one culture should own.
Cultural traditions are owned by their members. It’s a concept known as cultural patrimony, and in some cases there are even laws to protect a culture’s ownership over anything from their cultural traditions (even intangible ones) to historical artifacts to national monuments and more.
On top of that cultural appropriation’s consequences are extremely harmful.
"Two ways in which cultural appropriation can be harmful are easily identified. The first sort of harm is violation of a property right … The second sort of harm is an attack on the viability or identity of the cultures or their members.Appropriation that undermines a culture in these ways would certainly cause devastating and clearly wrongful harm to members of the culture … Other acts of appropriation potentially leave members of a culture exposed to discrimination, poverty and lack of opportunity.” - from The Ethics of Cultural Appropriation
And if you think being on the outside of this situation is annoying imagine how annoying it must be to see others feel entitled to desecrate and fuck with the same traditions you experience racism and hate crimes for, and also contribute to the racism, poverty and hate crimes you face.